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life as of late is pointing me back here.

current position: my mouth numbed up from the dentist wanting to eat but not accidentally chew my fucking lip off, learned the hard way. not recommended.

... ive been understanding more of the phase im in ,i think the majority would call this period "alow" before the high. at the moment im just got grasping the fact that its gametime and not downtime, which ive never missed but in this case ive been more laxadasical and glued to either apple product i have and forgetting myself which scares me cause i see alot of older ppl in my life slow but surely drift away and i wont let that happen to me.

having downtime is a blessing in itself which is a whole other post, nevertheless my hands down, favorite time to create ... sketch out .. try new techniques

life will never not point to balance. so the sooner you cut all ego ties with high n low points you move differently.

: a note in my iphone dated May 21 2021

- usually people like myself have to navigate this time period with family friends work eating sleep and a possibly addiction or two, a lover or hobby, which isn't the easiest of task in the long run blah blah blah.

i strive to express more fluidly + expressively in any moment in my life i dont want to post only when im happy or in the mood i want to throw up my ideas creativity and voice ect on the floor publicly and privately. just saying this big rant is over. i wont edit it. i dont care to but it will be my reminder.

arn is human